The Perpetual Breaking: A Dynasty of the Spirit

If you were to peel back the layers of who I am past the business, past the brand, past the strength people see on the surface you’d find a stack of journals. And if you opened them, you’d see the ink smudged by the same prayer I’ve been crying out for years.

I don’t just say these words; I bleed them:

"Heal my heart and make it clean / Open up my eyes to the things unseen / Show me how to love like You have loved me / Break my heart for what breaks Yours / Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause / As I walk from earth into eternity."

The "Real" That Cost Me

I used to wonder why I felt so much. Why I would cry every time I whispered those words. It was a hunger to see what Jesus saw in His final hours to feel the weight of a love so deep it stayed on the Cross even when it was being mocked.

But I’ll be honest with you: having a heart like that in this world is expensive.

People have looked at my "realness" and seen an opportunity. They saw my kindness and mistook it for a weakness they could exploit. I’ve been used, I’ve been abused, and I’ve been overlooked by those who thought my compassion meant I didn’t have a backbone. They didn't realize they were looking at a heart being tempered by the Spirit of the Lord.

Still on the Potter’s Wheel

The world thinks that once you "arrive," you stop needing to be made. But to this day, I still cry out to Him. I still ask Him to break me.

Why? Because I never want to be a finished product of my own making. I want the Spirit of the Lord to live in me so fully that the "me" people see is just a reflection of Him. I want Him to keep building me, keep molding me, and keep refining the KNg Dynasty until it’s a pure vessel for His Kingdom.

My hurts didn't break me they made me. My losses didn't empty me they cleared the space for Him to move in.

To the Heart That Feels "Used"

I am ministering to you today because I know that place. I know the sting of being "too much" for a fake world. But I’m here to tell you: Don't you dare close your heart.

The KNg Dynasty stands for Legacy Over Hype because hype doesn’t require a soul, but a legacy requires a broken one. Psalm 51:17 says the sacrifice God actually wants is a broken spirit. Every tear you’ve shed over your journal was a seed. Every time you were used for your goodness, God was marking you as a leader who can actually be trusted with His heart.

I am who I am because I refused to stop asking for the breaking. I want to be made. I want to be real. I want to walk from this earth into eternity with nothing left in my hands because I gave it all to the Cause.

Keep crying out. Keep staying soft. Let the King continue His work in you.